May 2011
Goodnight
Look around for a means To dissuade her attention Can’t remember the places And names that she mentions My words are falling apart in spite of me I’m stepping out of the light So she can’t see Don’t think I’ll miss her But I want to take her picture When I found a place Where she can’t find me And she’s falling asleep As she’s walking with strangers...
Sometimes conviction can lead to stubbornness.
Save me, I do care. <3
thefatthethinandthefabulous asked: anons are me.
“What do you do when you look in the mirror And staring at you is why he’s not here? What do you say when everything you said Is the reason why he left you in the end? How do you cry when every tear you shed Won’t ever bring him back again?”
I hate myself for losing you.
Sleeping pills Shower it is. It’s amazing how his voice makes me want to keep going, to not...
Can't decide whether to take sleeping pills or a...
I still feel sick and my face is raw from crying. All I want to do is sleep, but I literally stink and I’m supposed to see a friend tomorrow. She’s getting married and I’m her maid of honor. I don’t fucking want anything to anyone else’s relationship right now, let alone a marriage. I’m alone and I’m probably going to die this way, so why do I have to...
37277.) When I say I miss you, it really means...
Currently sobbing.
Woke up with that feeling again.
Its like a sinking, twisting pain that makes me nauseous. My head is throbbing and my chest hurts. What if this only gets worse? Two more days and it will have been a month. I wake up every damn morning feeling like the day is already lost. I don’t sleep anymore. If this really is killing me I wish it would hurry up and get it over with already.
I love you.
I LOVE YOU.
I always want to say it instead of just goodbye but I’m terrified that one day you’ll stop saying it back.
Tomorrow is going to be a long day.
Tears, pills, bed.
Fuck comas.
Death would be welcomed with open arms right about now.
The drastic is never going to happen. I wish i knew what needed to change, I swear I would do anything to fix this.
I am beginning to lose hope. My love for him is never going to die, but my hope is growing weaker as the days drag past.
I took sleeping pills a few minutes ago. I have a throbbing headache and the kitten is cuddled up and purring next to me. At least I still have that little love...
I want to die. No I don’t. I want to curl up into a little ball, all soft and warm and comfortable and just go numb. Not just to feeling, but to everything. No, I don’t. What I really want is him. And I keep giving myself all this false hope when deep down I know that it’s extremely unlikely for him to take me back. And this wish to die, or to suddenly become comatose is just a...
Jack - You were not a bad girlfriend. I wouldn’t say it was a waste of time. Sometimes things just don’t work out. There just simply was not enough in common. But don’t give up hope. You still love him & he still loves you. When two people love each other, there is always a chance. No matter how outlandish it may seem now, miracles happen every day.
Jill - Kill yourself....
There is another world. There is a better world....
The day has barely begun and I’m already dead. Fantastic.
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La vie n'est pas juste. (life isn't fair.)
Its just not fair. I know that your having a wonderful time at a party, probably with some beautiful girl, and I’m all alone at home, laying in bed and crying my eyes out.
I still love you so much… I’m still hurting more than I ever thought possible, like it just happened today. My heart isn’t just breaking; It’s disintegrating. I honestly don’t want to feel...
And then the isolation set back in, restricting her windpipe and clouding her mind.
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My anthem as of this moment.
Against The Grain, by City And Colour
You need not to climb mountaintops, You need not to cross the sea, You need not to find a cure for everything that makes you weak. You need not to reach for the stars when life becomes so dark, And when the wind does blow against the grain, You must follow your heart, You must follow your heart. When all your friends have come and gone, And the sun no longer...
I need something to love. Something to truly care...
